Change, Joy and New Beginnings
My daughter says to me this morning, “Mom, do you remember how I was telling you that I keep seeing dragonflies everywhere? In my flying around outside, in dreams and just everywhere. said “yea”. She's says, “ Do you remember how you said that maybe it the dragonflies have meaning?” I said, “Yes”. She's says, “Well, I looked it up and the dragonfly represents cHaNge, JoY, and nEW BeGinnINGs.” It was such an appropriate moment to share her insight, as we drive away from the hotel we’d spent 5 nights in getting her older sister transitioned to her new college town 8 hours from home.
In the car 30 minutes after this insightful conversation with my youngest daughter. I had a complete meltdown for about 5 minutes. It was a moment that I couldn't quite put into words when trying to explain to my husband what I was feeling. Is this grief, fear, release…I’m really it sure. What I realized as his eyes watered a little is that I didn't need to try to explain myself because he was feeling it to. He confirmed my observation in away that only he could with an I know. And a few moments later okay, we can't cry right now because can't drive and cry. We laughed it off and agreed to try to make it home before we let ourselves get too emotional again.
The mood on the drive home was different there were quiet moments. There were wiping our eyes moments. There were moments of laughter. I could see Bailey trying to reconcile being in the backseat without her big sister. I reflected onwatching the two of them walk hand in hand the day before and weep in one another arms before we left campus. Her tears once getting back to the hotel room.
My girls normal siblings who debate hard, fuss over the most frivolous things and they really do love one another. As a Mother, I’m managing my own emotions and trying to figure out how to support her through this transition in the coming days and months. I'm even anticipating how to support and encourage our oldest beauty whenever she calls home questioning her choice. It's definitely a nEw BeGinNinG for us and we know that the JoY is there, but we are giving ourselves permission to adjust to the CHANGE. It's huge for this closely knit quartet when one of our members steps out to do a solo album. But we will adjust well and we will all thrive in this new season.
My apologies I haven't introduced myself. I'm Tynia, I'm the writer of this new blog. A space for me to talk about things that are important to me and I hope important to you also. .As you have learned from the beginning this first post I'm a mother of two beauties. My daughters are phenomenal young women who make me proud to be their Mom. I'm also a wife of twenty-two years to a my loving and amazing husband. He deserves a gold metal for his ability to navigate life with us three ladies. He is the most steadfast human I have ever met. His loyalty and commitment is unmatched. He is my person!
In my professional life I'm a licensed therapist, life transitional specialist, speaker and consultant. I'm here to share my heart, to inspire and encourage you. I hope that you will hang in here with me. Do life with me. Continue to evolve with me.
Let's see what comes up for the next blog post. 🤷🏾♀️
Until next time, take care.
Talk soon.
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Tynia
